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14 June 2009 @ 10:49 pm
title: everything is okay
fandom/pairing: arashi/shojun
rating: pg-13
word count: 941
notes: BOKUIMO AU, with sho as yoru and jun as iku. written for aya_rheign who supplied me with the plot. i know i still have tons of things to update, but let me post this small ficlet. i own nothing; this was read over by me and comments are much appreciated :)

ps i made sho the seme for you, kimi ♥


Jun has an older brother. He’s been with him his entire life; sharing a room with him, walking to school with him and occasionally taking baths together. Jun calls him Sho, never oniichan, even though Sho has expressed his disapproval on this. It's kind of hard to explain, but Jun never saw Sho as a brother. Not anymore.

“Jun, hurry up, we’re going to be late.”

Jun tugs at his necktie one last time before shutting the door behind him. At the dining table is their mother, smiling at the both of them kindly. Sho is scowling beside her, with a piece of toast in his mouth. With a soft goodbye, Jun and Sho leave for school.

They have been doing this for several years now, going to school together; usually walking since it wasn’t really far away. Unconsciously, Jun adjusts his pace so he can walk beside Sho. That guy walks really fast and often leaves Jun behind. On the way they often talk about everyday things—their mother, Sho’s soccer practice, Jun’s baseball tryouts, tonight’s dinner, exam scores and unreasonable teachers—it has been like that for years. But for some reason, in almost an instant that neither of them realized it, things have changed.

“You have an upcoming match, right?” Jun asks eagerly, catching up with Sho.


“Have you been training properly? I heard your opponent was really great at their last match.”

“I have. I’ll train again after school so I might come home late.”

Jun watches as Sho went on walking, not even sparing him a glance. His replies are cold and forward, not offering unnecessary details. Jun doesn’t allow himself to be disheartened.

“I see. I’ll tell mom then!”

Sho is too busy walking straight ahead to notice Jun’s smile. He’s also too busy to hear Jun’s whispered “good luck.”


Before, their nights are filled with laughter, with whispers, with secrets. Jun would tease Sho, Sho would mock Jun and they both laughed at each other. Now, all that was present is an eerie silence, an occasional creak from the bed and Sho’s light snoring. The double deck their mother gave the two of them caused a light stir at first, because both of them claimed the bottom bed. In the end, Jun gets the upper bed, and Sho gets the lower one. Jun thought this is advantageous because sometimes he likes to check on whether Sho’s really sleeping or not.

Tonight, he doesn’t feel like it. He sleeps on his side, folding his knees underneath him, while below him, Sho sleeps.


One night, Jun discovers Sho’s stash of adult books. They were in an inconspicuous box in Sho’s side of the closet, which Jun finds while he was in search of clean socks. A part of him feels relieved—he’s been quite worried since Sho seemed like the perfect sort of student though Jun knows he’s not that type—but another part of him feels betrayed. There was no justification to this feeling so Jun ignores it.

“I saw your porn,” Jun tells Sho casually.

Sho arrives in his muddy soccer uniform, still sweaty and a bit out of breath. Jun doesn’t know what makes his heart beat faster: the fact that he’s confronting Sho or the fact that Sho’s looking at him so intensely. In a heartbeat, Sho grabs Jun shirt, and he tells him slowly, “Don’t go through my stuff, Jun.”

When Sho lets go and leaves to take a bath, Jun slumps against the desk, his heart beating faster than before.


“I’m sorry for going through your stuff,” after a dinner full of tension, Jun whispers this right as Sho closed the door to their bedroom. “I didn’t mean to.”

“Never mind,” Sho shrugs, and Jun feels so frustrated. Sho’s brushing him off again.

“Did I do anything else wrong? Anything else I forgot to apologize for?”

“What are you talking about?” though his eyes are focused on his bag, his hands grabbing his books and placing them all neatly inside.

“You’ve been treating me like a disease, that’s what I’m talking about.” Jun cries out. “You used to be my best friend! Now I don’t even know if you even consider me your brother,”

“Jun, it’s all in your imagi—”

“I’m not stupid, Sho. I know what you’re doing and I can accept that, if that’s what it is. If you hate me, just tell me so I can stop following you around like some lost puppy!”

“Don’t talk about things you don’t know!” when Sho raises his voice, Jun shuts his mouth. His eyes watch his older brother, waiting for him to explain. It’s his call, after all. “I don’t consider you as my brother.”


“I don’t consider you as my brother, all right?”

Emotions blur his vision. He feels hurt coming on, little stabs of pain all centered on his chest. He is crying, but Jun doesn’t think it’s possible. Jun’s shallow breaths fill the silence of the room, and he wants to cry out, to yell, to run away. But then he feels hands grip his arms, and a warm chest against his cheek. Jun looks up, his eyes all blurry with tears, to see Sho holding him close.

“Sho—What are you—”

“I don’t consider you as my brother,” Sho tells him fiercely, his gaze meeting Jun’s squarely. Jun prepares a reply, but Sho covers Jun’s lips with his own. Nothing else matters now. Everything is okay, Jun thinks as he leans against Sho, his half-lidded eyes watching him as he kisses him.

Everything is okay now.
ika_rasuika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:00 pm (UTC)

you're incredible. am reading. *A*
nontoxic.: 嵐 ❖ bridging the gapquartered on June 14th, 2009 03:02 pm (UTC)

i typed that in record time too lol. shojun incests excites me way too much XD
ika_rasu: fma // brb cannibal modeika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:03 pm (UTC)
OMIGOSH! THAT WAS INCEST, RIGHT?! /still shocked okay.

you're showing off your kinks lately. :P
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:05 pm (UTC)
YES, sdklasnd should i be embarrassed?!?!?!

....everyone should stop giving me ideas i keep writing them wtf XD
ika_rasu: toma // grinningika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:09 pm (UTC)
i need time to sink that in, dear lord.

idsjfdnsd i have never read them incest-y.
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:11 pm (UTC)
i feel kind of proud for scarring you this way. maybe i should write akame incest next! :D
ika_rasu: akame // distanceika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:21 pm (UTC)
d-damn you. you're drawing me into your kinks. D:
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:22 pm (UTC)
admit it. YOU WANT IT. ;)
ika_rasu: akame // distanceika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:28 pm (UTC)
...they already have the angst greater than twincest's. ;-;
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:29 pm (UTC)
that's why akame would be perfect in thissssss.
ika_rasu: hyd // best of friendsika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:35 pm (UTC)
i know. they live together for college. then jin is this playboy and kame has this brother complex and always waiting for him. :(
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:36 pm (UTC)

ika_rasu: junohno // with youika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:38 pm (UTC)
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:38 pm (UTC)
i know. all i know is that i am writing this. i need to maximize this writing surge.
ika_rasu: toma // grinningika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:40 pm (UTC)
it looks really shiny to write. *prods* :3
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:41 pm (UTC)
fine fine i'm going to type it now.......
ika_rasuika_rasu on June 14th, 2009 03:44 pm (UTC)
oh, you do?♥
though my own idea is tempting meee. D:
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:44 pm (UTC)
write it too ;D
キミーちゃん: Sho-kitto daijoubuaya_rheign on June 14th, 2009 03:17 pm (UTC)
AH~ SHOJUN INCEST IS asdlf;khg heart1*dead*
really glad that i found that picture and posted it 8D

Sho as the seme sakfhlks yes bb~sparkles Sho will always be the top *nods sagely*
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:21 pm (UTC)

it's rare that i write sho as the seme you know ;D but i feel like i should make him YORU this time since jun already had that part in the movie 8D
キミーちゃん: 櫻井翔aya_rheign on June 14th, 2009 03:28 pm (UTC)
then you should write sho as the seme from now on. am i being too pushy? kidding

ah~ will definitely save this oneheart

here have some more sparkles for your awesomenesssparklessparklessparklessparklessparkles
nontoxic.: khr ❖ boys will be boysquartered on June 14th, 2009 03:31 pm (UTC)
lolol it's okay bb~! i'll consider it, sometimes sho comes off as uke-ish to me but he can be seme too 8D

:") sparkles make me really happy /loves on you
tass_chantass_chan on June 14th, 2009 03:25 pm (UTC)

Wonderful~ I wish there were more, though 8D
nontoxic.quartered on June 14th, 2009 03:28 pm (UTC)
this fic was actually inspired by a manip. XD i don't know how did it, but that person must be awesome.

thank you so much!! :) i still have some unfinished fics to attend to, but after i've settled that i'll consider writing more of this :)
r_1_ss_ar_1_ss_a on June 14th, 2009 04:58 pm (UTC)
you are awesome.

your shojun is ALWAYS love.


i love it when you update!!! :)
nontoxic.quartered on June 15th, 2009 01:06 am (UTC)

shojun is always love to begin with ♥ thank you so much for reading and commenting! :D/
Fatemaarashi_sugoi on June 14th, 2009 09:30 pm (UTC)
OMG! INCREDIBLE <3 Incest AND Yaoi <333 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING <3 Kyaa~ SAkumoto <3 xD I am wishing it was longer now >W<
nontoxic.quartered on June 15th, 2009 01:08 am (UTC)
you're very much welcome! :D sorry it couldn't have been longer, i'll think about continuing it after i'm done with my previous multichapters :D
Fatemaarashi_sugoi on June 15th, 2009 03:46 am (UTC)
OMG! REALLY?! I will LOVE U SOOO MUCH MORE if u continued it :3 I can wait ;D Oh u wrote new fics? Ok, i am gonna go read the new ones now :3 I haven't been able to read fics coz of my exams >.
nontoxic.quartered on June 15th, 2009 03:54 am (UTC)
they're not really new, but feel free to look around. i posted several ones in the past month. :) blegh exams, i understand though, they can be a killer. D:
Guucherry_armrest on June 15th, 2009 06:01 am (UTC)
I like how Jun's so vulnerable here :) and wow, incest XD

nontoxic.quartered on June 16th, 2009 11:22 am (UTC)
i was quite surprised that i actually went through with this too. i guess vulnerable jun is one of my secret kinks hahaha XD;

thank you for reading and commenting! :)
stsatsumatsu on June 15th, 2009 07:08 pm (UTC)
nontoxic.quartered on June 16th, 2009 11:22 am (UTC)
i'm glad you did :D! thanks for reading and commenting! :)
natsu: ARASHI // i will ship them till i die.happiegurlie on June 16th, 2009 08:16 am (UTC)
I can't believe how PERFECT THIS AU IS FOR THESE TWO. *____*
nontoxic.quartered on June 16th, 2009 11:23 am (UTC)
i don't know why no one has written it before! :D thanks for reading and commenting! :)
Frksofafrksofa on June 19th, 2009 12:01 am (UTC)
This was perfecto ^-^ and, just as you said, I can't believe noone has never thought of this before (I have never read one before anyway)
Mikakuro_tenshii18 on June 19th, 2009 03:09 pm (UTC)
this is amazing *O* yes you're right shojun incest is really something :> ahaha sorry ngaun ko lang nabasa D: